guess who i saw today? i saw my sec form teacher.. ya it's Mr Loo.. lol.. of cos he still remember me.. i'm pontempt queen..lol.. we had a rather short chat..

got back ECAM quiz today.. hmm..ok pass.. rather satisfied with the result could have got better result.. due to carelessness.. haha..
this time can get such mark should thank MR "V" for his "lenient" teaching..lol.. if not i think maybe jux pass or fail??? ok... cannot praise him later he float high up in the sky le..

VI today was totally disastrous.. my partner n me both were in a bad mood.. we does not know how to do.. actuali i dun reali get wat my partner intended to do in mind.. quiz was a ???? for me.. dunno how to do.. tml MA project submission.. dunno how to die... still got IA test.. tat one i die even jia lat.. tml a killer day for me..

next week exam break.. mux study harder.. mux catch up with e work.. if not cannot get into uni next time..

e incident had been pass for a week past but still cannot let go of it.. how i wish i lost all my memory and i would not think that much and begin mentally torture.. i can't help but my mind keep flashes the images of the body landing.. e bloody scene and etc.. pls.. someone pls help me.. at times i wish to go and visit a psychiatry c if got help.. cause i dun think i can get on with my normal life like this.. i might be getting a mental breakdown one day.. that is something i dun wish to see.. i dunno.. anyone got any suggestion??

jux came back from dental appointment.. wah.. pain loh.. e dental pull e teeth ma jiam like pull up his pants use all his might and pull.. feel like crying loh.. for ther next few days must eat those real reali soft food le.. dunnoe this time must eat how long.. hopefully tat before new year will be ok..
nowadays, students parent like to owe tutor money.. this is e 3rd or 4th time tat particular parent is like this le.. at times i reali want to tell her that if she reali cannot pay den pay me after each lesson.. at least like this also better for me.. it's not as if she is reali hard up of money.. she noe tat she owe me tuition fee but she still can bring her kids go genting.. if i were her i will keep mum le.. how am i going to believe she reali no money..
hopefully, i'll be able to get more students during the break with reasonable rates.. N.... e student itself is still ok.. so tat i wun teach till vomit blood.. i alreadi had enough of those problematic student le.. so now i pray real hard tat i wun get one..
signing off from here.. NiTeZ..

if "u" happen to drop by my blog n start memorising.. thanks for memorising all e details ar.. u should noe who u r.. n can u pls dun start sharing my blog to e whole class..?? n y u keep telling plp tat i got bf.. i'm not proud of it at all.. y? because i'm not happy in this r/s at all.. tat's y i nv even bother to admit i'm in a r/s or not.. wat's e point telling others tat u r having so much trouble or problems in ur r/s.. it's not as if u can solve.. rite..

feeling rather down these few days after e incident... ya.. having sleepless nite everyday in the end turn up to be very tired.. flashbacks of the body landing keep running through my mind.. i seem to be manipulated by my mind.. it's reali scary.. becauseof this i dun dare to watch any horror movies anymore.. it's no longer a thrilling show for me.. i miz my slp.. help me god..

wento to wash my ring jux now but who noe i stupid.. while waiting for my ring to be ready i was like glancing through e jewellery.. den who noe's i in e end become e "lamb".. sobsob...i bought an earing.. hmm.. not reali e one i like.. prefer another design better.. but both ok.. e other design is a diamond flower de.. same as my ring design.. n e diamond is much bigger..=)

lol..i'm mad... 1st time buying an expensive jewellery for myself.. a bit heart pain.... so whoever out there if u wanto sponsor me my earring.. i'm most willing to let u pay for it.. e receipt is still wif me dun worry but onli if u meant it.. lol..

yeah.. gtg.. going out for my tuition soon le.. pray tat i wun teach till i vomit blood..

y r guys so insensitive? or should i say tat they r a "block"... y do they like to ask gals r u a "V" or not.. so wat if a gal is n not? after all,they r jux after a gal "V".. if they seriously luv e gal they will not even bring up e qns.. it should be e luv tat binds both of them together not e "V". it's reali rude n insensitive of them.. how i feel like strangling them.. n i dun think i'm oblige to ans them after all they're not my bf.. if it is, i will ditch e guy off immediately..

guess wat? yesterday my blk here got plp "parachute" again.. scary.. i feel reali lost,scared n afraid.. my mind is in a whirl.. flashbacks of my uncle appear.. i was abt to forget everything abt it le or should i say not even thinking of it le but now this type of thing happen again.. i can't forget le.. my "ying yin" is back.. i was abt to breakdown.. i think i need to c psychiatry if not i will nv able to get out of this.. help me god...!

all of a sudden..i feel so down.. w/o any reason..
how should i start with? i also dunno.. should i say i'm my mind is in a whirl now...
do humans feel down all of a sudden...?
this upcoming week will be many test n 2 projects to complete.. feeling rathtyer stressful...
y am i always seem so stress????? haiz... let me jux end here......
niTeZ!