i've really fallen..
both important people in my life have left me..
ruyou ignore me,dear wants a break..

i dunno how come things become like this, we were just so fine but suddenly, he treated me coldly..

this is how it goes, on sat after i went to the toilet at imm, the moment i step into his car he never talked to me le.. before that we were still talking and laughing it was only after i came back from the toilet..
i know i went to the toilet for around 10min which is a bit long, but the toilet was really in a long queue and i did do a quick one.. after that when i came out, i bought fruit juice n mc flurry for him to eat.. he say he has not eaten anything so i thought buying something that is light for him to have snack 1st cause after have buffet ma..
den after tat in the car, he never talk to me le, until i finally break my mouth to ask' why so quiet?' den he say nothing to say ..

den after that when he met his car frens, he still remain quiet.. when they reach the place to see their rims, i tell him i'm tired let me rest in the car.. when he came back,i told him i might not be joining they all for the buffet.. cause i felt quite ex,if the 2 of us go,it will cost ard 100.. so i say i might not be joining.. when i ask him does he really want me to go along.. he say 'later go don't pull a long face'..
i really never pull a long face.. just then, the people from kushin bo called to double confirm the reservation, he say 10-11pax.. but they asked for a confirm nO of pax.. after that he called them back to say only 10pax.. i ask does it include me? he say 'no'..
then i was disappointed.. my fren say cannot meet me le and he know,so he ask still want to go..i say but u confirm the reservation le and you tell yours friends already 10pax le.. i don't want more trouble so i say nvm i just go home.. he left me walk alone, never walk me out.. i was very disappointed.. he say, when reach home call him..
we still msg like normal, but i left him alone cause he need to accompany them.. he say when finish he will call me.. den he send a msg that he's at sentosa with them.. then i jux say i might be going out for a drink.. den he was angry.. he thought i go drink to make him stay but it was wrong... i never complete my sentence.. i mean go to my house there the roti prata drink teh tarik.. i only say maybe..
den after that i say when reach home den say, drive safely..
he never give me a call when he reached home.. i was very worried, i keep waking up in the night couldn't fall asleep worried something happening to him.. but i dared not call cause he say he will tell me when he reached home , later he think i trying to spot check him..
the next morning the 1st thing i do was to call him, cause i did not receive a call or any msg from him worrying something might have happen.. i keep calling from morning till night.. finally 8plus pm he msg me 'i was outside the whole day doing my car, now still outside'.. at that moment i was relieved.. he say he will call me again.. everything was still ok..
it was only on mon, during the noon everything was still like normal, it was only after 4plus..
i sense something wrong cause when i ask him is it anything has changed between us? he say' nothing has changed. i know you have changed and you never throw your temper for no reason'.. after taht i ask are you coming over tonight, he say' can dun wan? i dun wish to meet you today'..
it was so strange.. den i called.. i msg him telling him how i feel the past few days why i'm feeling down.. when i msn him asking if he had received my msg he say yes.. after that he say, i'm sick and tired of this r/s, i dont want to be committed, i want to be single.. i was so shock.. after that he asked for a break off asking me to let him off.. we talk and he relented to meet me up for a talk later..
during the talk, he was at 1st very angry and insist a break off, after that my fren say, we need a break first.. a break and a break off is 2different issue.. think about everything 1st..
i couldn't control myself tears keep rolling down... after he reach home, i msn him asking what are we now.. he say' does that matter'.. i never force him to ans..

the whole night i couldn't sleep.. i couldn't breathe normally, heart beat very fast, dizzy and headache.. in the night, i couldn't control myself anymore, i told him i was feeling terrible.. in the morning when i called him, he nv ans my call.. i was so sad, i really never lie, i really not feeling well.. in the end, he say'pls ask papa to bring me see doctor'..
he edited his profile in friendster, he changed his r/s status to 'it's complicated', changed display picture,put all our pictures at the back and even removed who i want to meet.. last time was' someone who loves me truly and i love truly, i've found you'..
he remove everything, that time when quarrel, he did not do this.. someone please tell me why..i'm really very hurt..

i know i need to be strong, to stand up but i can't.. i tried convincing myself he already has done his best in this relationship,he needs a break now.. he's not feeling good either.. what he is doing now is for the best of us.. i need to understand what he is going through now..
but i just cannot take it..
i really can't afford to lose this r/s.. i've been starving myself for 31 hr le..