been very emotional recently.. drops would roll down from my cheeks for no reason and i will eventually start to cry.. appetite isn't good recently.. from friday till now never really eat anything.. things that i've eaten can be only 50gm.. really don't have the appetite and really feeling nauseous..

weather is very cold recently, so my asthma is coming back.. been feeling very breathless, heart beating very fast these few days.. how nice it would be if you were with me..

just finish doing something for him, for our 8months anniversary tommorrow.. we're going for sky dining, i'm so looking forward to tommorrow..

recently, not feeling very secure.. partly the main reason is i have this institution that somebody from his car club fell for him.. though i have tell him this but he doesn't really seem to be bothered.. i know if the girl really fell for him, he can't do anything, but at the very least he should try not to attend so many events when she's around.. dear, at the very least you are reducing the frequency to let her see you.. try to distant her..this will eventually make not make her feel so much for you.. i know you say even when you all are meeting, she will sit close to other guy but the fact is it doesn't stop her from feeling from you.. just like how you feel for me in the past.. you get what i mean? from the trip that time we went to, the way she look at both of us can tell that she feel for you.. this is one of the thing i dare not tell you.. i'm afraid that you will say i sensitive or possesive.. i know the main motive you are meeting the rest not her..
so i don't have the right to stop you from meeting them..but dear, even though i trust you but i will still can't help but feeling insecure.. i don't want to let this afffect us..

anyway, dear 2more hour to our 8month anniversary.. happy 245th day of togetherness!