i noe y i'm nv contented with the things i have now.. reasons being jotted by my friends r perfectionist,no one to exactly pin point out my wrongs..

i'm feeling out much better after pouring out my woes to the correct person.. thanks ashley &ruyou! thanks for being there for me.. my ex-shepherd and my best friend..

don't worry guys, i'm ok.. everybody have different ways of releasing their stress n unhappiness.. just that my way is different.. through starving is the way i can not hurt myself physically and being seen by others.. the longer i starved, the more i feel better.. perhaps,i'm too fat that's why when i see when i'm starving that's the best way to slim down, i felt so happy.. i cannot take it when i see my weight went up.. therefore, i continue to stave.. perhaps, i should say i feel guilty, therefore, i want to break my record of starving.. till dated, i have starved for 46 hours.. it's not that i does not want to eat..i did tried to have something swallow down my throat for the past few days, but whenever i try to have something i will feel very nauseous.. the feeling is terrible that's why i starve myself..

signing off from here