i'm so proud for myself.. i have been rather faithful for the past few months.. been attending service and CG..

everyday i pray for strength to be stronger, wisdom to settle my things.. i can say my things have became complicated till the way i can no longer handle it on my own.. lord, i have you have your plans for me, i pray that i'll be able to solve the problems that i faced in my work.. things have changed.. there's too many many things for me to cope on my own..

want to thanks those people who have supported me all along the way.. for those who don't understand me and have been discouraging me and making many comments behind my back,i hope that you guys will considered about other feelings.. put yourself into others shoes..if you guys don't know anything just keep your mouth shut..

i'm feeling so much pressurised..
i miss my late grandma.. really filled with regrets even till now its been 4years past since she passed away.. till now i can't forgive myself, i really missed her alot, at times i will really think of her and tears would still roll down.. i can still remember vaguely.. its because of my laziness that i lose the last chance to see my grandma.. like every other people, we thought that our loved ones are still around in this world and they won't be leaving.. because of this thought, i lose the chance of visiting and talking to her.. a few days ago, she was still alive kicking.. but 2 days later, she pass away.. what had actually happened?
i'm so unfillial, my grandma used to dote on me so much but because of my laziness i lost the chance to visit her for life..
no one has ever know about this at all, even till now, i will still teared whenever i think of her.. especially whenever people ask me to eat,especially my grandma.. cause i know she will never be able to call me to eat anymore.. ah ma, R.I.P, you're forever remembered..
i have to let everything in my life go..