i missed my appointment with the psychiatry today.. i did not went..
the fear of seeing psychiatry alone was so deeply inrooted.. i could see other doctor alone for their appointment but not this appointment..
i'm really afraid.. i want to get myself treated but i need a support cause i cannot imagine the outcome after i see the psychiatry.. you should know what is the problem that lead me to this.. i should have agreed to seeing psychiatry in the past when you wanted me to get cured..
it's my regret.. because of the problem it has not been solved,it led to my eating disorder then to further problem..
i don't know if you will still accompany for this appointment.. i'm fear of being rejected by you.. cause you're the only person knowing the real problem therefore i prefer you accompanying me there, i don't wish others to know..
i guess this request is too much.. i'm not expecting for an answer..
i will try to get it through myself..


